Firstly, we want to extend our heartfelt sympathy to the Pretorius family. We realise your precious possession has been taken away by our child's deed.
We are terribly sorry and wish that the circumstances weren't so, and that we could change them.
Morne is very small and scrawny for his age. Until Monday morning we never thought he was capable of such a thing. We are a very solid family and our children are raised strictly, but with a lot of love.
Because of Morne's physical build, he was often belittled during his formative years. Where we could, we stood up for him and spoke to the bullies involved, but also accepted it as part of life.
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During a visit with Morne on Tuesday, we saw that we never realised the true impact that the physical and emotional abuse had on him.
He explained to us that he felt so powerless and worthless that he wanted to make a stand.
He went to school intending to give "them" - which was never directed at a specific person - a fright and to hurt them, but he never intended to kill anyone. He wanted to release built-up frustration and his feeling of powerlessness. He wanted to be someone.
Morne was a very small baby at birth, and through life we knew him as someone quiet who knew his place.
To our regret, it looks as though Morne experimented with Satanism and that, in his psyche, it offered him a measure of protection. It was as though he could escape into this idea - that he would experience certain powers which would then offer him a protection mechanism.
His words to us were: "When I put on the mask, everything became dead quiet and my body moved. I wanted to stop, but couldn't."
He also mentioned that the matric final exams had put a lot of pressure on him. Although he never failed a grade, he was terribly afraid he would.
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