‘I feel like I missed my sexual prime’

In the film Shirley Valentine, Pauline Collins plays a housewife whose family pays her so little attention she frequently talks to her kitchen walls in order to keep a conversation going. When a friend wins a trip for two to Greece, Shirley uncharacteristically puts herself first and accepts her invitation to join her.

In the film Shirley Valentine, Pauline Collins plays a housewife whose family pays her so little attention she frequently talks to her kitchen walls in order to keep a conversation going. When a friend wins a trip for two to Greece, Shirley uncharacteristically puts herself first and accepts her invitation to join her.

Published Dec 24, 2014

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Question: I am against cheating. I won't do it, but it feels like I haven't truly lived. I went to school, got married, had a baby. I feel like my husband's had a full life. He's travelled all over the world, done two deployments and is settled. I haven't even started. I feel like I missed a part of my prime, especially sexual prime. Help!

 

Answer: I'll answer your question, but can I tell you a story first?

My mom came to visit me in New York City once. It was about 10 years ago, and I was bummed about a bad and very colourful breakup. Actually, two. I'd broken up with a guy a year or so prior who wanted to marry me. He was great, but like you, I felt like I hadn't “lived.” I told him as much when we broke up, and he told me I'd never find someone as good as him. Ouch.

So I went and “lived.” I travelled and I partied, and I met someone else and he broke my heart. And while I usually didn't regret that first breakup with the great guy, in my funk that weekend, I did. Maybe, I thought, I should have just gotten married.

My mom was in town to cheer me up. I asked her what she wanted to do during her visit, and her request was, “Nothing special, just the things that you usually do.” Um, OK.

It was a Saturday, so we went shopping in Soho. I introduced her to some of my friends, then we grabbed a late lunch at my favourite restaurant with cheap but amazing food. It was far from fancy.

My mother was giddy and wide-eyed the whole time. I didn't get it. She'd been to New York plenty of times, so it wasn't as if she was awestruck of the city. She explained, “I didn't get to do this.”

By “this,” she meant live largely unencumbered with the freedom to spend Saturdays window-shopping and wandering aimlessly, gabbing with friends without anything major to worry about. When she was my age back then, she'd been married for five years and had a two-year-old: me. She pointed out that I didn't have to worry about keeping up with a child (or husband) or doing laundry or grocery shopping or any of the other thousands of important and sometimes very mundane things a wife and mother does to keep the household running smoothly.

She added that she wouldn't trade me or my dad for the world — OK, maybe put us off for a year each to have lived in New York — but she wanted me, in all my breakup funk, to know just how good I had it.

And she was right. There are extraordinary perks to being single, even if a lot of people, especially women, take them for granted. It took my mother, married by then for almost 30 years, to point it out to me.

So, yes, I get where you're coming from. And yes, I won't lie, there are things you missed out on. But you've got a stable home, a solid man and a child who I'm sure adores you both. You're looking at someone else's grass, and while your own yard might not be landscaped the way you like, your grass is green, too. Cultivate your lawn so it stays that way.

You're married and a mom. Your life is not over, it just comes with more responsibilities and requires more advance planning. You want to see the world? What's stopping you? Kids and husbands are both allowed on planes. And that settled family man you have at home is entirely capable of parenting his own child if you want a solo getaway or a weekend with the girls. Finances? That's what planning ahead and savings accounts are for.

Also, you have a partner you didn't describe as a jerk, so I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt that he's the type of husband who wants a happy wife. Let him help you build the kind of life you want with him. Share with him what you want out of life and the experiences you want to have. You want to see the world? He gets your wanderlust because he's done it. Ask him to take you to some of the places he's been. Ask him to go to somewhere he's never been so you can discover it together.

Now, as for the sex, I wouldn't encourage you to cheat on your husband even if you weren't adamantly against it. But unless you're planning to divorce him — which I also don't suggest — you're stuck with him as far as the sex goes, so you're going to have to make the most of it. And by “most,” I mean get creative — role-play (with costumes), toys, different places, different positions, etc.

If your imagination doesn't run very wild because you don't have a lot of experience, that's what erotica and romance novels are for. Pick up a Zane or Niobia Bryant book, and whatever description turns you on, try that out with your husband. I don't know many men who wouldn't happily consent to more and freakier sex with their wives.

* Lucas is a contributing editor at The Root.com, a life coach and the author of “A Belle in Brooklyn: The Go-to Girl for Advice on Living Your Best Single Life.” She is a cast member of the “Blood Sweat and Heels” reality series now showing on Bravo.

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