Holly Madison has slammed sex with Hugh Hefner as “routine”.
The 35-year-old beauty - who first moved into the Playboy Mansion and became one of the media mogul's girlfriends when she was just 21 - admitted she did not enjoy sex with the magazine publisher and just wanted to “get it over with”.
She said: “The sex was very routine, and something I don't think any of the girls really enjoyed. We just wanted to get it over with. I just wasn't into the group aspect. It was embarrassing, and it wasn't something I would typically do in the bedroom.
“I don't think he cared if we enjoyed sex. But I don't think he cared about my happiness at all. He cared about his own happiness, nothing more. And he believed that all a pretty young girl could possibly want from life was a little bit of money and a little bit of fame.”
Holly claims she got so depressed while living in the Playboy Mansion that she contemplated suicide, but her 89-year-old lover would not let her seek psychiatric help.
She said: “I asked Hef for help, and he told me I wasn't allowed to see a psychiatrist. He knew they'd advise me to leave. It wasn't about what was best for me. It was about him maintaining control.”
Although Holly has slammed Hugh in her new book 'Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny,' she admitted that she was once in love with him.
She told Stylist magazine: “I loved him. I was young and blinded by his fame and accomplishments. I'd never had much luck in love, so I convinced myself that guys my own age weren't for me, that I was always meant to find Hef. Just like that, I was in love.
“People always ask me why I stayed so long. But that's the million dollar question for every woman who has ever left a bad relationship.”
On the flip side, Kendra Wilkinson thinks Holly Madison should “appreciate” the lifestyle Hugh Hefner gave her.
The 'Kendra On Top' star has blasted the fellow Playboy bunny’s negative comments about Hefner in her memoir.
She told Us Weekly magazine: “It’s a shame that someone can’t be appreciative of what something like that has given them ...
“I just think it’s up to people what they believe. The proof is out there on 'The Girls Next Door'. At the end of the day, people made up their minds already if they believe it or not. So I can’t dictate. I can’t manipulate anybody’s minds.”
Meanwhile, the 30-year-old beauty previously dubbed Holly “pretty sad” for her comments.
She said: “My intention was to tell my story. It's pretty sad. It makes you question the timing, and it makes you wonder, 'Wow, she wants real revenge.' At the end of the day, true colours shine.”
Hugh has denied all allegations made against him.
In a statement, he said: “Over the course of my life I've had more than my fair share of romantic relationships with wonderful women.
“Many moved on to live happy, healthy, and productive lives, and I'm pleased to say remain dear friends today. Sadly, there are a few who have chosen to rewrite history in an attempt to stay in the spotlight. I guess, as the old saying goes: You can't win 'em all!”
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