It's been a month since Khanyi Mbau revealed she and her longtime boyfriend Tebogo Lerole have parted ways, and now the entertainer has shared more details of how she's trying to deal with their breakup.
Appearing on Metro FM's DJ Fresh show on Tuesday, Mbau revealed that she is still working through the breakup and that there are still times when she hovers from being fine with it and then not being fine with it.
"I don't know where I am right now. Every day is different. There are days where I call him and I'll say something. There are days where I'll call and hate it. There are days where I think it (the breakup) was the best thing. So, I don't know where I am."
The big breakup announcement came early last month when Mbau posted a lengthy Instagram post confirming the breakup.
when Love is not enough? WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?? Today. I made peace with a battle that I have lost, i have accepted defeat. My greatest fear and my greatest loss.. letting go of the man I gave my heart too @edwardbillion it has taken so much from me in convincing my self that I am OKAY? Today I chose to face my fears and accept my truth. Today I let go of my greatest pain, LOVE IS PAIN .. for a while now I have been so insecure, so bitter and lonely, AS the wise WOULD say everything has a season!! THE HELL!!, 😖WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?? 😔My Summer has gone. My first ever experience of being truly in love and being fearless but the very same love has made so small and so sore inside. I have lost me .. today I let go of my future plans, the man I saw as the father of my kids and my future husband.. love of my life.. my best friend!! 😭I am afraid , I am so afraid but I am going to learn how to love me genuinely first before I try and love again. Lord give me strength🙏🏽. #BROKEN #single #afraid #scared 🌪 💔
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However, the two were spotted together at the opening night of 'The Color Purple' and Mbau admitted it was a mistake.
"It was a relapse. The first time was at the play and that was when there was the 'zing-zing' for the first time in a long time. Do I look away? Do I greet? And then you have this white lady going: 'Can I please have a picture?' After the picture, it's like: 'You still look great,' and I was like: 'Thanks'. Then your shame walking in the morning going: 'why?'
Despite this setback the TV personality is moving forward and said that she's going to be strong.
"It is tough! I am not going to give you a movie and say, like Bridget Jones, that you go to India for four days and you are strong. There are days where you remember all the bad things and you are like 'actually, I'm good'. There are other times where you are like; 'Oh! I'm not good'.