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Local Nyaniso Dzedze shared a very personal candid post about his love-hate relationship with masturbation on social media on Wednesday.

Dzedze explained that he recently shared the post in a Facebook group, after being confronted with the question: :"DO YOU JACK OFF? If so to porn? And what affect does it have on your life? (sic).

After sharing the story in group, he shared it with fans, recalling is 14-year addiction to masturbation. Dzedze said he started masturbating when he was 16 years old, and continued doing it regularly until the age of 30.

"I used to jack off tons. I used to jack off lank hard. I used to pretend that I'm sick on Sundays so my mom would leave me at home alone and I would jack off all day (then I'd pray and repent all night before school). More recently I would jack off from Saturday night till Sunday afternoon without a wink of sleep," he wrote. 

"Screens are addictive enough and the activity will screw with your brain, making you think it doesn't need sleep, now combine that with sex (Porn) and I could literally go days without sleep... just stroking, eating, pissing shitting, stroking. I did this periodically for years since I started around 16 till 30."

The "Ashes to Ashes" actor the explained that he is now a recovering addict. He recalled the day he realised that his masturbation was really just him fight demons.

"I one day, 14 years later, realised I was dealing with unattended demons (unresolved emotional traumas sitting in me),"  he confessed.

He ended the very personal message by telling fans that porn is a crutch the people lean on when they want to pacify themselves.

"Porn and jacking off is a crutch. the actual issue is what it's helping you feel less trauma around. It's the same as any other addiction or crutch I've come to find. We pacify," he shared.

Dzedze added that it was only when he addressed the root of his pain, he felt inclined to pleasure himself.

"It was only when I started using emotional tools that addressed the root of my hurt. The more I worked on the heart of the problem, the less I needed porn and jacking off to feel better," he wrote.

He also shared detailed Instagram post about his relationship with his wife, revealing that they do not have a very active sex life, because he doesn't want their relationship to based on sex.

"We used to have sex at an average of about three times a day. Now it is less and less with every month. We're going to end up having sex once every two months. I refuse to have that relationship," said Nyaniso to his wife, not too long ago.

Read his full posts below.

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* YOUR POWER PRT. 2 Recently on an amazing Facebook group. The question:"DO YOU JACK OFF? If so to porn? And what affect does it have on your life?" Me: I used to jack off tons. I used to jack off lank hard. I used to pretend that I'm sick on sundays so my mom would leave me at home alone and I would jack off all day (then I'd pray and repent all night before school). More recently i would jack of from saturday night till sunday afternoon without a wink of sleep. Screens are addictive enough and the activity will screw with your brain, making you think it doesn't need sleep, now combine that with sex (Porn) and I could litterally go days without sleep. just stroking, eating, pissing shitting, stroking. I did this periodically for years since I started around 16 till 30. I was an addict. I would say I am recovering now. I think I cancelled on friends once or twice in those years to jacking off. I one day (14years later) realized I was dealing with unattended demons (unresolved emotional traumas sitting in me). That I didn't know what esle to do with my unresolved shit except jack off and briefly feel different about them. No amount of being shamed, told "you're throwing your life away", "You're trash", "You're stupid", "you're going to burn in hell" helped change anything. I had said all of that stuff to myself already. All of the shame of hearing it from someone else (whether a priest, friend or coach) only made me feel worse and gave me more of reason to go back to it. It was only when I started using emotional tools that addressed the root of my hurt. The more I worked on the heart of the problem, the less I needed porn and jacking off to feel better. since I started moving my inner instabilty about, two and half years ago I must have gone to porn and jacked off a few times rehabilitating, but I am not an addict anymore... I don't need it anymore. I feel different about muself now. I look at women different. I hold women different. I allow myself to love different. Porn and jacking off is a crutch. the actual issue is what its helping you feel less traumer around. It's the same as any other addiction or crutch I've come to find. We pacify.

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WHERE DO YOU PLACE YOUR POWER? "We used to have sex at an average of about 3 times a day. Now it is less and less with every month. We're going to end up having sex once every two months. I refuse to have that relationship." I found myself saying to my wife not too long ago. Recently on Vela Tata we have been unpacking sex and ejaculation. unpacking what sex would be without ejaculation. We all fired triggered responses, and I was soon reminded of how much weight us men have placed on sex. Sex is being used as the antidote for every males expression in place of connection and intimacy. From ages as tender as 5 years old men have are weened from intimacy, physical affection and vulnerable expressions of emotion. Aside from anger, violence, and physical sports, men have been primarily permitted expression when having sex. Yes I say "permitted", when men express themselves in those ways society commonly sees it as "men being men". It's programmed in our roots that the only time to relax in tight long embrace is in sex. Men allow themselves to cry and release emotions they wouldnt any other space or time during sex. So what men have naturally done is place every opportunity to express excitement, sadness, deppression, stress, grief, a rough day. through sex. Is it truly a wonder why we sexualize everything all the time? Is it such wonder why we want to have sex ALL the time? NOPE. Men don't just like sex, we depend on it. we have come to need it, almost as integral as food. Sex is a crutch. someone needs just to kick the sticks of those crutches and say "you can't have sex anymore" and a mans world will come tumbling down. Because where and how else will men feel? That's where we've placed our power... In sexes hands. As men our power belongs to sex. Worse more, our sex belongs to objectified bodies,thats why we are slaves to sex. Our sex and our sexual pleasure is entirely invested in the other human whose body we experience sex with. we have handed our power over to the world Kings My brothers Let us not look away. Let us see Let us look at our patterns so we have the power to change them. Let us OWN our Power #TheWizard #TheEnlightenedSavageKing

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